“It feels like someone has stolen my child!
It’s so normal for me to be homesick but today that feeling was so strong and it’s a long haul am away from my parents and home. Today am longing for home, may be Facebook reminded me with a video of Jenny that I took at my home in 2010. And also hearing some 90s Malayalam movie songs I had lot of memories with each songs. It teleports me to flashbacks of people, places, and emotions linked to each songs and many stages of my life. I found myself falling through my memories backwards in time after hearing that songs.
I am sure my childhood memories are treasures which I all cherish. These are the memories which are still in pictures and albums but the most precious ones are always stored in our hearts. Many small things remind us of these wonderful memories every day. It can be a smell of our favorite food, some old songs or even something we see our kids doing takes us back to our own childhood.
As I get older, I find myself looking back more and more with nostalgia. When I was young, I couldn’t wait to be an adult. But I’m sure like me, you realize that enjoying your childhood, is one of Gods greatest gifts.
I have the most amazing memories in the house I grew up in. Memories that I feel helped make me who I am today. Memories that shape the woman I became and the Mom is now. I mean, I really “lived” there for so many years. It holds my past. Here are just a few that I cherish and am holding on to now.
Going through my childhood memories have been conjuring up (happy) tears, because many of these memories growing dimmer. It’s nice to know that I was as happy and free as a kid, in contrast to many of my conscious memories of my childhood and my relationship with my parents as a child. It is also nice to see that my sister and I were really close when we were young too, and how she had always been by my side (holding my hand) in all our outings, shopping’s and celebrations. Our long walks through rubber plantations after everyone went for afternoon nap. May be technology was not so developed like these days was a real blessing. As a mom, I am trying to make sure that my kids stay away from gadgets as much as possible. When free we were roaming around or talking to mom or grandmother .And waiting for Malayalam movies that came every Sunday evening. Most important our parents always bought us food and such. We could save up our allowance if we wanted something bigger, but in general we didn't have to worry about money and it was wonderful. Getting a chocolate or a candy that time was an outstanding feel.
We were so little, everything else was so big. Now everything looks so much smaller than they used to be, even our parents and our pets.
When I was young, it was easy to form and maintain connections. They are effortless. Starting with family. But somewhere along the way, making friends and meaningful connections becomes more difficult. As kids, the people that surround you grow up with you. You form your values and life perspective together. There may be some friendships that fall by the wayside but those that make it through usually form lifelong friends.
When I look back at my childhood, there is so much I could talk about and so many memories, but when I stop and think about what I treasure the most from, it isn’t just one memory, it was more of a way of life.
All of those things contain beautiful memories, but what I love the most and miss the most, is just that we were raised to simply. That just waking up in the morning was a blessing.
Fast forward to being a busy mom of two, I am still such a dreamer. When I’m not editing images or cooking dinner, I can often find me staring out of a window, lost in thought, lost in dreams. It’s in those moments, that I remember the finest moments of my childhood. That there were no expectations. I didn’t have a lot of friends, so therefore, I never dealt with friends being mean or not accepting me.
I am thankful for a happy childhood with my parents. The love, care, and blessings from parents which make me happy when I look back. I am thankful for fun times and fights with my cousins and sister. My sister and I are just one year apart and used to fight a lot for everything. Now we have just memories of those days that make us laugh when we look back. I am thankful for those days when we could only focus on fun and happiness and not worry about anything in the world. Today, while writing this post, it’s all flashing in front of my eyes. Last but not least, I am thankful for my childhood as those happy childhood days made me what I am today.
While I look back at my childhood memories which bring a smile on my face, it’s time to make such wonderful memories with my daughters.